Art Assignment - how does the core emotion feel... July 30, 2017

My body feels like there is tightness in the pit of my stomach and the exchange of deep dull and sharp pains.  A loneliness, a void and then a punch of pain in an infected open wound... like the fingerprints of all who rejected and abandoned me are poking to make sure I still feel their mark left on me. 
It felt nauseating and dark, it felt like a feeling I avoid a deep agonizing pain that I try to avoid by reaching ... an aloneness mixed with heavy in the pit of my stomach- like an elephant stepping on my belly would feel like less pressure.

tight bloated not claustrophobic suffocated- shallow breaths-- full of sludge

My body betrays itself and attacks along with the feeling

colors are dull and matted like old puke --- with red dirt smeared around

lines reaching out like i do--- fingerprints

the word unwanted ---it would say its owned me from the moment i was conceived and tried to dull my light...

I'd like to be free and feel wanted by me..