When I think about my situation, it hurts to know that i've lost, my belief in my worth, my purpose. My ability to create the life I came here to live... that I am alone & unloveable... that I'm not enough or I'm an imposter that people only like me if they don't really know me... that I can't be here for myself and I can't trust anyone else to be here for me either... that I don't stand in my own light and power... that i'm afraid of what others think of me... that I have no idea what i'm doing and someone/people will find out... that what i look like is ultimately what matters ... ugly duckling to swan back to ugly duckling ... afraid of abundance and my powers in creating ... that i'm overlooked and under appreciated ... that I'll never step into my power and purpose, that my life here will be of no significance
1. I felt my loss in my heart like a dull ache and in my belly like my belly button that originally connected me to my mom, my source of life.
2. I still feel lost and alone... disconnected
3. that i have been drowning in raging ocean of worthlessness ... that there are sparks around me but i haven't had the strength or courage or even at times the knowing off how to incorporate them.
4. deep colors with bright above me... they can't penetrate the deep blue they would just mute themselves
5. the circles of light blue- how I go round and round swirling and finding no way out of he loss or not knowing how to transform it. those circles are swallowed up by the deep blue ocean of loss... dots of purple around me but not enough to connect me.
6. the drawing tells me that the loss has consumed me... its clouded over any worth in me & my life... that i don't know how to get out of my head to know how to do it but my soul can't figure out the path...
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