Art Therapy- Sept. 14, 2017

1. It makes me feel small and unbelieving in my worth... scars and tears, but a slight glimmer of more of knowing... I'm in there somewhere
2. My heart has more hope and  isn't quiet as lonely and lost.   
3. My heart hurts and feels sorrow for the loss- but knows there is more inside me... it knows what I have forgotten, but hasn't been able to get me to understand.  I knows a secret that i don't understand or comprehend 
4. Green is the core surrounded by purple but its surrounded by a large tear drop of sorrow and clouded over by gray... the black are scars of hurt and unworthy and the teal is the bright vibrant of the secret...
5. That i want more, i want to believe in my worth and stand but I feel covered by the gray holding me from seeing the light clearly.
6.  that the worth is there that i know on a deep level.  I'm just trying to bring it to the surface, and be engulfed surrounded penetrated by it... integrated into every cell. 

1. it brings it full circle, it completes and brings back color.  gives vibrance and color... that the loss can bring about revitalization. 
2. that i can't really lose what i am... that my worth is always in tact its just my belief about it.  It may be dulled or hidden, but never gone.  misplaced for bit but always in me.
3. the colors I have drawn to are bright and vibrant... the circles surround and secure - solid ... holding me safe.
4. the colors overlap and hold onto each other, the strokes from the brush aren't perfect but they are perfectly them... like me...

I did this one because I have my thought of my kite string holder... I've been trying to hold my own string... and i'm trying to be ok with that... is it wrong to want someone to hold it for me and let me fly?  is it desperate to not want to be alone... or do i just surrender to the fact that i've mostly been alone and maybe thats what i will be....